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Because..

At some point of time, the life of every person revolves around the thought of what others think of them. Somewhere in life, we all want to be individuals who will be accepted by the set of individuals who make the society. Man is a social being, and acceptance plays a vital role in everybody’s life. On the other hand, rejection and isolation can hamper the self esteem of anybody to quite an extent and how!

Most of my life, for some reason, was unconsciously spent in trying to be someone who would be easily accepted by the society, my peeps at school, graduation, otherwise, until today when I look back and smile at the tests fate has put me through. I never wanted to be somebody, but never got a chance to be myself too. Almost every person who I met during the course of life, taught me the lesson not to expect to live a life that every other individual did. I could be myself only with myself! They say, ‘Trials make a Jewel out of You’ and yes, I am a Diamond going through the final polishing stages.


Childhood was not as pleasant as it is meant to be. I cannot thank the Divine enough, for giving me such wonderful parents, who kept giving me their constant love and support, even when I told them that I am an adult and can handle myself. But again, the other set of individuals who make this society played an essential role in creating the not so pleasant memories of childhood. There never went a day in school when someone told me ‘You are not supposed to do this because…’ I tried to find answers to the because, and got them eventually, but life taught me the harder way.

The because, was a handicap, that was visible to the world unlike that of a ‘normal’ person’s that usually only he/she would know. The visible handicap, was so evident to the people around me, that they failed to recognize the strength of a twelve year old, who had the urge to live life the way she wanted to.
As a kid in school, I was always an extrovert who always wanted to go to the school ground to share lunch with her batch mates or to observe the P.T sessions. I was allowed to till primary school , until I reached the 5th and then the 7th standard, when I was expected to understand as to why I was not supposed to go to the playground. There came a point, where I started believing that I should not be doing what I am doing. My mind was conditioned not to think about going to the playground, not to think of leading an independent life, not to think of ever being with a guy who will always be with me.

Oh by the way, my parents enrolled me into a school with ‘normal’ kids, because that is what they perceived me to be and yeah, that is where the differentiation started. I am as normal as anybody to play a prank on my friends or throw a tantrum at my parents!. My folks never saw my visible shortcoming as a handicap; But sad it is, that people around me did and still do. But today, who really cares! I finally managed to solve my inner conflict of ‘To be or not to be’! I call my life story a road less traveled because of the unique way that I have written my life and beaten the worst by the best at every stage!

Life kept getting better with every passing year. What better way to celebrate twenty ten than being a few drinks down, with the bestest people life gifted me! (Missed you Teju) And here I am today, just a few months away from my ‘ Master of Bad Activities' Degree, ready to shine and glitter, because I am a Diamond, meant to shine and glitter!
P.S : Thanks Riya for always standing by me in school!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Because..

At some point of time, the life of every person revolves around the thought of what others think of them. Somewhere in life, we all want to be individuals who will be accepted by the set of individuals who make the society. Man is a social being, and acceptance plays a vital role in everybody’s life. On the other hand, rejection and isolation can hamper the self esteem of anybody to quite an extent and how!

Most of my life, for some reason, was unconsciously spent in trying to be someone who would be easily accepted by the society, my peeps at school, graduation, otherwise, until today when I look back and smile at the tests fate has put me through. I never wanted to be somebody, but never got a chance to be myself too. Almost every person who I met during the course of life, taught me the lesson not to expect to live a life that every other individual did. I could be myself only with myself! They say, ‘Trials make a Jewel out of You’ and yes, I am a Diamond going through the final polishing stages.


Childhood was not as pleasant as it is meant to be. I cannot thank the Divine enough, for giving me such wonderful parents, who kept giving me their constant love and support, even when I told them that I am an adult and can handle myself. But again, the other set of individuals who make this society played an essential role in creating the not so pleasant memories of childhood. There never went a day in school when someone told me ‘You are not supposed to do this because…’ I tried to find answers to the because, and got them eventually, but life taught me the harder way.

The because, was a handicap, that was visible to the world unlike that of a ‘normal’ person’s that usually only he/she would know. The visible handicap, was so evident to the people around me, that they failed to recognize the strength of a twelve year old, who had the urge to live life the way she wanted to.
As a kid in school, I was always an extrovert who always wanted to go to the school ground to share lunch with her batch mates or to observe the P.T sessions. I was allowed to till primary school , until I reached the 5th and then the 7th standard, when I was expected to understand as to why I was not supposed to go to the playground. There came a point, where I started believing that I should not be doing what I am doing. My mind was conditioned not to think about going to the playground, not to think of leading an independent life, not to think of ever being with a guy who will always be with me.

Oh by the way, my parents enrolled me into a school with ‘normal’ kids, because that is what they perceived me to be and yeah, that is where the differentiation started. I am as normal as anybody to play a prank on my friends or throw a tantrum at my parents!. My folks never saw my visible shortcoming as a handicap; But sad it is, that people around me did and still do. But today, who really cares! I finally managed to solve my inner conflict of ‘To be or not to be’! I call my life story a road less traveled because of the unique way that I have written my life and beaten the worst by the best at every stage!

Life kept getting better with every passing year. What better way to celebrate twenty ten than being a few drinks down, with the bestest people life gifted me! (Missed you Teju) And here I am today, just a few months away from my ‘ Master of Bad Activities' Degree, ready to shine and glitter, because I am a Diamond, meant to shine and glitter!
P.S : Thanks Riya for always standing by me in school!

19 Comments:

At January 11, 2010 at 3:48 AM , Blogger Ni said...

It’s a new season; the leaves of lifeless yesterdays have nearly all fallen and the long drive ahead is strewn with evergreen foliage of budding tomorrows.

 
At January 11, 2010 at 4:04 AM , Anonymous Somya said...

I am glad that u have come a long way as a winner. I hope success always touches ur feet till the end.. God bless you dear.. And remember I will always be just a call away for you till my last breath.. Take care...

 
At January 11, 2010 at 4:05 AM , Anonymous Nisha Mathew said...

wow there's a philospher in you, nurture that and keep writing more :)

 
At January 11, 2010 at 4:05 AM , Anonymous Riya said...

hey sweetie... love ur expressions... and seeing you getting stronger... love you the way you are...

 
At January 11, 2010 at 4:10 AM , Blogger Midhun Murali said...

a diamond can stand the hardest of all tests and still can remain the most beautiful thing in the world. Let it be :)

 
At January 11, 2010 at 4:12 AM , Anonymous Ankit Anand said...

Shweta, just remember one thing. It's the inner strenth that matters and i envy u for that. May you always full of smiles that people like me need a lot....
and to add..... SIMC rocks because of some people like u.
Proud to be your friend. :-)

 
At January 11, 2010 at 4:15 AM , Blogger amrita said...

Swetaaaa beautifully written :) you are indeed a diamond :)

 
At January 11, 2010 at 4:42 AM , Blogger Lavanya said...

You are a gem of a person dear...gr8 to have you as a friend..

 
At January 11, 2010 at 4:45 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

thombee!! sahi ahes tu!!

 
At January 11, 2010 at 6:11 AM , Blogger Rejil Krishnan said...

No words to comment ! I respect you so much more than anyone here on campus.

http://rejoiceme.blogspot.com/2008/08/simc-salutes-you.html

 
At January 11, 2010 at 7:19 PM , Blogger nazneen said...

Shine on Crazy Diamond, Shine and the world is there for you....

 
At January 12, 2010 at 2:28 AM , Blogger The Unstable Atom said...

omg.. i dont really think i need to say anything more than what has already been said.. Just that its the so called society's "mental" handicap that they need to really worry about.. n really "who cares"!! you are much stronger than any "society" standing of its two feet. its all shallow from within really.. Im so glad to have you as a part of my life.. cheers!! n keep the rocking on! :D i love you!! take care.. god bless.. keep shining my crazy diamond!! :D HUGS!!

 
At January 12, 2010 at 3:30 AM , Anonymous Tejashree said...

My dearest Diamond swets,
Thanks for giving me such an important place in your life.
I believe everybody has a handicap!
We all constantly keep searching for some support and we need someone.For a broken heart its friends or new love, for a child its his mamma, for a boss its his employee, for an unemployed its still his old parents, for a nation its the govenment and soldiers, for a blind its his stick.
So what's the difference between person's visible handicap and the other's not so visible one!
There is one tiny and many huge differences.
The tiny being the that it is visible.
The huge being, we fail to realize what you can.
We all have EVERYTHING in life what we need. We have legs to run and catch a bus, hands to type long chats with friends, eyes to check out chics and hadsome guys...
But has anybody of us, even once appreciated or thanked god for all this? I am sure the answer is going to be a NO. BECAUSE we are busy wasting our precious time crying over what our neighbour has and we don't, getting jealous of a girl 'not so good looking' having a handsome boyfriend and we don't, when our competitors progress to a considerable level and we still lagging behind, for our parents being overprotective.. is this what we call complete living? living to the fullest? where is all this going to take us? Nowhere!
Life's already very short and we waste it by crying..
But what if we could slightly change our perception and look at things like you do..What if we thanked god for giving those legs and hands that can help someone? For those eyes that can see not only the external beauty but also deep down in somenoes heart.. after all nobody is born with a bad heart right? For a mind, to which nothing is impossible to acheive? For a heart, which can forgive easily and appreciate everthing that we have?
We all could become better humans first than trying to be SOMEONE.. We all could live every moment completely and happily even when nothing is working perfectly around us! Think! We all need to stop Handicapping our minds..
So my dear Swets, you are on the right track, you have climbed the first ladder and there are many more mountains to climb and many more waters to swim. Each time you will shine like a diamond! Just throw your heart over the fence.. rest everything will follow!
Love.

 
At January 13, 2010 at 5:14 AM , Blogger Gayatri Sasibhushan said...

:)

 
At January 14, 2010 at 3:19 PM , Anonymous gaurav shah said...

you are truely an inspiration to all of us ... shine like a diamond :-)

 
At January 21, 2010 at 6:18 PM , Blogger Snehal said...

dear sweta...kay mhanu...i really likd ur take on things,and d moment i read it i thought of something that even teju has touched upon:we all are handicapped..whether in our minds by our fears our insecurities,our inability to see the silver lining ;or in our bodies by the way God made us..some of these handicaps are apparent and most others we try our best to hide bcos we all wanna be better than we really are....the truth is to a great extent we really are the worst part of ourselves...we are our weaknesses..and that is y the desire to b better than wat we are is so imp...and to some extent we have the people we love to thank for that...bcos seriously how many ppl actually change for themselves?its d people v love that bring out the best in us!so heres to 1 girl i love who always reminds me to be more than i am!!love u and proud to b ur friend!!

 
At February 26, 2010 at 6:17 AM , Anonymous Keerat Kaur said...

And like most diamonds, you are worth so much to the people around you! Do you realise how much strength and courage you give to those around you? Not all of us can do that. You are a lovely human being and you deserve nothing but the best in life. All my love :) Keep writing. And I will keep reading......

 
At March 3, 2010 at 1:46 PM , Anonymous Riya said...

Swets.. i agree with wat teju has said.. cudnt put it in better words.. and for the rest.. u knw.. we are always there..
Happiness in life is to know that we are loved- loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves..
loves..

 
At March 5, 2010 at 3:28 AM , Anonymous cheenoe said...

kya baat hai madam .... jalwe hai apki likhawat mein bhi :P...
I mean it, it was very nice :)

 

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